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Well yesterday, Johni's birthday was hard but I made it through. Didnt make it to work or anything but I tried. I had my scrubs on but couldnt get off the chair.

Today is day ten. I made it through a conference for school...still found myself amazed that people could be so happy... and I cant get the ache out of my chest but it's a little better.

I worry about Nikki all alone in FL. She isnt completely alone, she has the kids and her dad and grandparents, but…

Well, I cant believe it has been a week. I have these odd moments of wondering what I am doing and what did I go into that room for and why am I just standing here staring in space. Sometimes I just cant even get off my chair, I cant even will myself to move.

So many people call and want to talk but I just dont want to talk to anyone but my husband, daughter-in-law and my granddaughter. Every day my sister calls and makes me talk to her...but sometimes I just grunt my hellos…

My son was prounounced dead at 6:04pm on Monday, September 27, 2010. He was kept alive until Tuesday when his organs where harvested to help save the lives of others. On Friday, October 1, 2010 we had services for him to celebrate his life. This week on Wednesday, October 6, 2010 we will celebrate his 20th birthday as planned.

So far I have made it through each day. I don't know how. We had to go to target yesterday and suddenly amongst the rubbermaid isle I just had a…